'I love him in a way that is different than I love my other two children; it’s not more or less. It is just…different.'
I know his job of being the oldest comes at a price he doesn’t always want to pay. Firstborn children naturally feel the need to look out for their siblings whether they want to or not — it’s a big task and sometimes they take their job a bit too seriously.
His siblings look up to him. He is admired, and nothing will ever change that. It’s a huge responsibility, and sometimes I don’t give him the credit heBut holy crap, I love him in a way that is different than I love my other two children; it’s not more or less. It is just… different. He will always be the one who made me a mama. And it is OK to miss that dynamic — I know I do every day, and I hold those memories close. I hope he knows it.